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THE STRANGER
Author: by Ilaria (AKA genera=
le_kenobi,
Timeframe: AU, post-ROTS
Characters: Obi-Wan, Anakin
Genre: romance, angst
Rating: NC-17
Summary: In an universe where Naboo never happe=
ned, a
young whore on Tatooine meets a very strange cl=
ient. A meeting that will change both their lives.
Author’s foreword
Not long ago, in a gala=
xy
not so far away, a woman we will call L. asked her writing-friend to write =
an
Obi/Ani slash story for her. The writing-friend refused, claiming she was a het/gen
writer, not a slasher.
But L. did not take no as an answer: she challenge=
d,
harassed, and accused (“You have no balls to try something new!”=
;)
the writing-friend, until said writing-friend capitulated and wrote the
story—“MY MASTER”. However the writing-friend decided to =
take
her sweet revenge for everything she had to bear…if she was without b=
alls
then L.’s beloved, Anakin, would be too!
L. read the story and was not impressed by the
writing-friend’s work. In fact, she was so pissed off with what the
writing-friend had done to Anakin she threatened to never speak again to said writing-friend.
Her reaction shocked the writing-friend so much she
did not dare to post “MY MASTER” for several months, afraid to =
be
torn into pieces by other Anakin fans. But when she finally mustered enough
courage to do it, she was pleasantly surprised by the result. Not only was =
she
not torn into pieces, but the story received a lot of positive feedback.
Time passed. The writing-friend discovered she was
good at writing slash and produced another story, while L. meditated and mu=
lled
over “MY MASTER”. Then, one day, L. contacted the writing-friend
again and admitted that, well, she had always li=
ked “MY
MASTER”, ball-less Anakin included!
The writing-friend’s first reaction was to
strangle her, before she was rendered speechless by L.’s next line:
“You know, since my birthday is approaching, could you please write
another story with the same premise? Maybe an AU where Obi-Wan and Qui-Gon never found Anakin as a boy? All of this, of cour=
se,
from Anakin’s POV.” Of course! Anything els=
e,
madam? Do you also want Yoda dancing the =
Can-Can
and Mace Windu dressed in drag?
The writing-friend wisely refrained from saying the
highly censorable words running in her mind, also because, even if she would
not admit it that soon, she was already writing a story that, with the due
changes, could be the perfect birthday present for L.…and thus “=
;THE
STRANGER” was written.
All of this to explain =
that
the writing-friend (me) is not a pervert that enjoys chopping off Anakin=
217;s
balls. This time she was only following the rules given =
her
by L. because, after all, this is L.’s birthday present.
Buon compleanno, L.! I hope you will enjoy y=
our
present!
=
The first time Anakin Skywalker saw the stranger it
was at Mos Espa main
market.
The young man was walking among the stands, buying
food and looking for something nice to bring his mother, when suddenly the =
hair
on his nape stood up, and he had the distinct sensation someone was staring=
at
him.
Truth be told, it was not an unusual occurrence for
Anakin. He was used to be stared at. His past as a pod-racer, and his curre=
nt
profession practically guaranteed curious or leering eyes would follow him
wherever he went.
However, he somehow sensed this gaze was different
from all the others, thus he turned around and scanned the crowd until his =
eyes
fell on the stranger.
The first thing Anakin thought when he saw the man=
was,
“What he is doing here?”=
;
His short, neatly-combed ginger hair, his well-tri=
mmed
beard, his simple, clean clothes, and the elegance of the way he moved made=
him
stand out from the crowd gathered in the market. There was something
distinguished, dignified even, in the way he folded his arms over his chest=
and
held himself. It was completely out of place in the wretched hive of scum a=
nd
villainy that was Mos Espa=
.
Anakin was too far away to see the stranger’s
eye colour or read the expression of his face, but of something he was sure:
there was no morbid curiosity nor lust on his
features.
The young man took a step toward the stranger̵=
7;s
position, but his path was blocked by a bantha
pulling a wagon full of groceries and, by the time Anakin circled it, the o=
ther
man had disappeared.
****=
*
In the following days, Anakin could swear he felt =
the
stranger’s eyes on him more than once, but every time he turned aroun=
d,
there was no one in sight. However, those looks never bothered him, for
something inside Anakin told him they meant no danger.
So the evening he arrived to =
Toradiur’s
place to work and found the stranger sitting at the counter with a drink,
Anakin could not help but feel surprised and even disappointed.
What was a man like him doing in a brothel?
The =
same
thing all of them do, a nasty little voice said in=
side
Anakin, and yet, despite the evidence in front of his eyes, he could not br=
ing
himself to believe it.
The stranger was different—he did not belong
there. He was sure of it.
And yet there he was, staring at Anakin with clear
eyes and an unreadable face.
Anakin tilted his head, acknowledging his presence=
, then turned his concentration on doing his job. He smo=
othed
his black, gold trimmed silk shirt and tight pants with his hands, brushed =
back
his golden mane and crossed the hall, swinging his hips in a way that was
masculine and enchanting.
He started moving between the crowded tables, talk=
ing
and flirting with the men sitting there, coaxing them to order more drinks =
and enticing
them to follow him to the room upstairs.
Anakin was good at his job. He had been doing it f=
or
four years and knew all the tricks. He was the best—but being the best
also meant not everyone was able to afford the fee Tor=
adiur
had set for him.
Tonight looked like it was going to be an unproduc=
tive
time, and Anakin would have to return home empty handed. If it was not for =
the
fact he needed the money to pay for the ship Watto
had reserved for him, Anakin would have welcomed a night of rest.
He was tired of this life, of those nameless faces=
and
meaningless fucks. He wanted to go away from Tatooine<=
/span>;
he wanted a different job; he wanted to see the galaxy, to live in a place
without sand. He wanted… what? A lover?
He mentally kicked himself. As a whore Anakin could
not allow himself to even think about love. Love was for the poets or those
with enough money in their pockets they had not to worry about paying the r=
ent
or making sure their paralyzed mother got the appropriate medical care she
needed. Love was for… a hand on his shoulder interrupted his thinking=
.
“Kr=
ixster!”
Anakin exclaimed, turning to face one of the girls that worked in the place.
“You scared me!”
“I know. You practically jumped. Where were =
you
Anakin?” Krixster questioned with a smile=
.
“Uh…very far from here. Do you need
something?”
“Toradiur has to=
ld me
to alert you that you have a costumer waiting for you upstairs.”
“I see.” Anakin could not decide if the
news made him happy or not. He caressed the girl’s cheek as he thanked
her, then crossed the large tavern, avoiding the=
hands
that tried to grope and pinch him.
As he was passing by a table crowded with a group =
of
burly men, a drunken voice said aloud, “So you have a client, Skywalk=
er?
Ready to have a fat cock stuffed up your ass?”
Anakin gritted his teeth, but refused to acknowled=
ge
the man who had spoken. He did not have to turn his head to know it was Dar=
nell,
a thug that worked in the nearby mines. He had been lusting after Anakin si=
nce
he had started working at Toradiur’s plac=
e, but
since he could not afford to pay for him, the miner had settled for harassi=
ng
and taunting him every time he could.
The young man walked toward the door that opened to
the stairway, throwing a brief glance toward the counte=
r,
somehow relieved the stranger was no longer sitting there and that he had n=
ot
heard Darnell’s spiteful comment.
Anakin covered the steps two by two, decided to get
done with the business as soon as possible. However, when he reached the fl=
oor,
the stench of semen, sweat and urine assailed his nose, making his stomach
churn, and he slowed down as he fought against the desire to retch.
There had been a time, not too=
long
ago, when he would have not noticed the smell or how dirty the corridor was=
,
but it was becoming increasingly difficult to ignore it with each passing
night.
Anakin stopped in front of a closed door, took a d=
eep
breath and then pushed the button to make it open. He froze.
The stranger.
The stranger was inside the small room, in front of
him.
He was sitting on an old armchair by the bed, the
feeble light of the bedside lamp making the red of his hair and beard shine
like copper.
The disappointment Anakin had experienced when he =
had
first seen the man downstairs at the counter returned tenfold.
When he had seen that unknown man at the market, he
had thought that, with his natural elegance and distinguished appearance, he
emblazoned what good and pure and uncorrupted there was in the Galaxy.
Instead…instead he was there, in that bleak brothel room, waiting to =
fuck
him, like all those other nameless men.
This=
really
should teach me not to judge people just by their appearance, He bowed his head, forced a seductive smile on his
lips and murmured throatily, “What can I do for you, big boy?”<=
o:p> “Could you please sit on the bed, young
one?” Several thoughts crossed Anakin’s mind. Firs=
t of
all, he analyzed the stranger’s voice. It was low, cultured, with cli=
pped
consonants that evidenced a superior education and a long permanence in the
Core worlds. Then there was the way the man had spoken to him, politely, wi=
th
respect, and with no hint of irony in the last two words. Finally, Anakin wondered about the meaning behind =
the
man’s request. Why did the stranger want him to sit on the bed? Did he
want Anakin to fellate him as he stood up? Or had not this man realized what
Anakin really was, and thus wanted to suck him or sit over the young whore?=
Anakin was aware that it had been common for those=
like
him to emphasize their condition by using make up and dressing like women. =
In
fact, he had been taught to behave like that when he had received his first
training as a child, just after the operation. However, when many years lat=
er,
Anakin had chosen to become a whore on his own will, he had also decided he
would not submit to those rules. His clothes had always been masculine and =
he
never used make up, not even to cover the scar near his right eye, a memento
from his last pod-race. He might not be whole, thanks to Gardulla
the Hutt’s surgery, but he was still a ma=
n and
he refused to behave like a woman. In the end, what had been at first seen =
as a
fault, had become one of things that had made hi=
m so
popular among his clients. However, it could also cause problems with the
newcomers, the ones wanting to be fucked. So Anakin stood there, unsure about what to do, as=
the
stranger fixed him with his blue-grey-green eyes, a serene look on his face=
. “Is there some problem?” He finally as=
ked.
“I would like to talk with you, and I thought you would be more
comfortable sitting than standing.” Anakin forced his mouth to stay closed. The strang=
er
wanted to talk with him? About what? He started to object, when the man spoke again.
“Listen, I don’t wish to make you uneasy. Just sit on the bed a=
nd
relax. We don’t need to talk if you don’t want.” Somehow feeling he was back in his familiar territory, Anakin moved to the bed and sat down on the=
edge,
very close to the stranger. The man smiled at him, a gentle smile that made the
fine lines near his eyes become more evident, then
closed his eyelids. Anakin’s eyes widened in
surprise. What was that blasted man doing? Was he g=
oing
to sleep? “Relax,” the stranger murmured, keeping
his eyes closed, and waving his hand. Anakin felt the desire to obey him, and to let go =
of
all the tension he had accumulated in the past months. Sitting on the bed, he relaxed his shoulders, and =
took
the chance to observe his strange costumer. Of average height, he was again
dressed in a simple and solemn way: beige tunic and pants, boots and a dark
grey cloak. Studying the face closely, Anakin guessed the man =
had
to be in his mid-thirty, and that the sprinkle of silver hair near his temp=
les
had been put there by worry or pain, and not by age. His face, partially
covered by his beard was ruggedly handsome and strong. All in all, he was an
attractive man, one who should not have problems finding company without
needing to pay for it. The last thought brought Anakin back to the presen=
t.
He looked at his chrono and then cleared his vo=
ice.
“Ahem…mister…I don’t want to intrude, but my fee is=
100
credits for 30 minutes, and it would be best if you do what you want to do
soon, before your time is up.” The stranger did not open his eyes and simply said,
“I am already doing what I came to do.” This time Anakin could not help but stare at the m=
an
mouth agape. The stranger was spending 100 credits only to stay there with =
his
eyes closed? He had to be crazy. Or impoten=
t.
Or both. Who else would spend so much money and =
have
nothing in return? He could have understood if the man had ordered him to s=
trip
and touch himself as he watched, but this… The 30 minutes soon came to the end, but even befo=
re
Anakin could say anything, the stranger’s eyes opened and he stood up,
quickly and gracefully. “Thank you for your time,” he said,
handing Anakin a credit chip. “I hope to see you again soon.” <=
o:p> And speaking so, the man bowed his head and walked
away, leaving behind a stunned Anakin. ****=
* The following day, Anakin thought often about the
stranger as he cleaned the house or went on with his other chores. During the four years he had been a whore, he had =
met
many kinds of men. The kind and the violent, the ones l=
ooking
for an illicit thrill and those just looking for company and a gentle touch=
to
ease their loneliness. He had had clients that had wanted him to beat
them, and even a couple of perverts that had told him to call them
“dad” and pretend to be their son as they fucked him. He had be=
en
tied to the bed or ordered to dance naked, but never before had a man simply
asked him to sit and relax as he too, apparently, had done the same. Later that evening, Toradiur<=
/span>
went to greet Anakin as soon as he put a foot inside the brothel. “It looks like you have a new regular,
Anakin,” the old brothel’s owner said. R=
20;One
that not only seems to have plenty of credits, but that is also good
looking—quite a change from your other regulars.” Anakin frowned, as something inside him whispered,=
it is the stranger; he is back.
“What are you talking about?” “The bearded guy of yesterday evening is bac=
k.
He is already waiting in your room, and this time he has paid for a whole
hour.” Anakin arched an eyebrow. A
hour? What would the stranger want to do for an entire hour? Surely he would
not spend all the time like the previous evening? Without losing more time, Anakin went to the stairs
and quickly reached his room. He opened the door and found the stranger sit=
ting
on the armchair, a welcoming smile on his lips. “Good evening, Anakin,” he greeted with
his pleasant voice. “You know my name?” Anakin dumbly aske=
d,
slightly upset by how his body had shivered upon hearing his name roll off =
the
other man’s mouth. “Your employer told me.” “Then you have an advantage over me, for I
don’t know yours.” “You can call me Ben.”
“I could, but it isn’t your name,̶=
1;
Anakin commented with quiet certainty.
“It will be my name while I stay here on
“Will you stay here for long?” Anakin
asked as he moved to sit on the bed, and he was surprised to feel his muscl=
es
tense as he waited for an answer.
“I don’t know yet. A
month, maybe more.”
The young man nodded. “Do you plan to come to
visit me often during that time?”
Ben folded his arms on his chest. “Maybe.
Does the idea displease you?”
Anakin shook his head. “=
No,
not really. It’s just… I think you’re strange,
Ben.”
Ben arched an eyebrow, but did not comment, so Ana=
kin felt
entitled to explain, “You’re spending a lot of money for me, and
yet you don’t seem interested at all in… fucking me.” He =
said
the last two words looking at the older man from beneath his slightly lower=
ed
eyelids, in what he knew was one of his most seductive gazes.
Ben did not react as he had…what? Dreaded? H=
oped?
He just tensed and remarked,=
span>
his consonants more clipped than ever “Don’t speak like that in=
my
presence. I am not here for that. I am here just because I enjoy your prese=
nce.
I don’t want to do anything but stay here near you, talking or in
silence, it doesn’t matter. But if we talk, I don’t want to hear
you use that language again.”
Anakin nodded without comment, willed to agree by =
the
other man’s steely eyes and powerful personality.
Silence fell on the room, as Ben relaxed against t=
he
armchair, his eyes closed, and Anakin scooted up the bed, leaning his back
against the wall.
The rest of the hour was spent like that, in amica=
ble
silence, until Ben opened his eyes, smiled at Anakin and stood up.
“Thank you for your assistance, Anakin,̶=
1;
he said with a slight bow. “I really enjoyed this time together. I wi=
ll
return soon.” Then he turned on his heels and walked away, his grey c=
loak
whirling around him.
“I look forward to seeing you again, Ben,=
221;
Anakin whispered in the empty room, and it was not the meaningless line he =
said
to all his costumers.
This time he meant it for real.
****=
*
The next day, Anakin passed the afternoon working =
at Watto’s shop. His former owner often called for=
him
when the Toydarian had something difficult to f=
ix.
It was something Anakin loved to do, for it helped=
him
to make some extra credits and because it kept his mechanical skills honed.=
However
that afternoon, he fond difficult to accomplish the repairs he had been ask=
ed
to do. He kept on thinking of Ben and replaying the previous night’s
encounter.
Anakin could no longer deny it: he was intrigued by
that mysterious man, even fascinated. He did not pretend to understand why =
Ben
liked to spend time with him, but he had to admit he felt flattered someone=
was
willing to pay so much money just to be near him. And also there was the
curious fact that Anakin had felt exceptionally relaxed after Ben had gone =
away
the previous evening, so much so that he had managed to remain so even when=
his
next client had taken him quite brutally.
It was thanks to that relaxed state that Anakin was
able to sit and move around with minimal discomfort, and the young man was
curious to see if it would happen again the next time he and Ben would meet=
.
Anakin could barely restrain himself when, two hou=
rs
before sunset, he entered Toradiur’s brot=
hel.
He knew Ben was there, waiting for him, even before his employer caught his
glance and nodded, raising his thumb.
One =
hour,
Anakin thought, a whole hour with B=
en.
He was determinate to take a full advantage of their time together.
He covered the steps two by two and almost ran tow=
ard
his room, slowing down only at the last moment, for he did not want to look
childish. He took a deep breath and tried to calm down, but when he entered=
the
room, Ben’s wide smile made him think that the older man knew how
agitated he was.
Anakin found himself liking the idea very much.
“Good evening, Ben,” he said, walking
straight to the bed.
“Good evening, Anakin. Am I right in saying =
you
had a good day?”
“Yes, you are. I did. W=
atto
asked me to help in his shop and it is something I love to do.” Anakin
answered with a grin, before he remembered that Ben was not from Tatooine, so it was improbable he knew who Watto was and what the Toydarian=
had been to Anakin.
“Watto is what I=
call
a “junk ship” dealer, he sells spare
mechanical parts of every kind. My mother and I used to belong to him.̶=
1;
“Used to belong? Were you a slave?” Be=
n leaned
forward and Anakin could almost sense the horror pouring out of him.
“Yes, I was, but he wasn’t a bad owner,
compared to the one before him. I won my freedom and my mother’s when=
I
was sixteen. I was a pod-racing champion, you know? The=
only
human able to pilot them.” Anakin said with a proud smile, dec=
iding
to move the conversation away from his past as slave. “Are you famili=
ar
with pod-racing?”
“I know they’re very fast, very
dangerous.”
“Oh yes, they are, but they are also very
exciting. I loved to race.”
Ben nodded with a slight smile then asked, “=
Why
did you stop?”
“Because I grew too tall=
to
sit comfortably inside a pod. The last time I ran, I
inadvertently pushed a lever with my knee and I smashed the pod against a r=
ock.
It was a miracle I managed to jump down just in time and escape with just a=
few
scratches.” Anakin touched the scar near his eye almost without notic=
ing
it.
Ben nodded again, this time in approval. “You
were very wise to learn the lesson and stop before something worse could
happen.”
“I know. I was sorry to stop racing, but I
couldn’t risk leaving my mother alone.” Anakin shook his head a=
nd
added, “Alas, the end of my career meant I had to find another job to
support Mon and me…and so here I am.” He moved his arm to indic=
ate
the small bleak room.
“Weren’t you able to find another
job?” Ben asked gently, no trace of judgement in his voice.
“There aren’t many jobs for free people
here on Tatooine. Most of the employers find it=
cheaper
to keep slaves. I tried to work as a free-lance mechanic, but the money I m=
ade
wasn’t enough to pay the bills.” Anakin took a deep breath and =
went
on, his voice softer. “When I bought our freedom, I had a surgeon rem=
ove
the transmitters placed in our bodies, the ones the owners use to find flee=
ing
slaves. Mine was located in my shoulder, but my mother’s was near her
spine. The surgeon that operated her did something wrong, and left her
paralyzed. She needs medicines for the pain, expensive medicines, and the m=
oney
I made as a mechanic wasn’t enough. So, since I knew I was attractive=
, I
decided to accept Toradiur’s offer to wor=
k for
him.” Anakin lowered his head, ashamed.
“I am sorry, Anakin, really I am,” Ben
said softly, but with conviction. “But you must not be ashamed for wh=
at
you did. You did it for a greater good. You have suffered so much in your y=
oung
life, but you still retain a very big, generous heart. I am sure your mothe=
r is
proud of you.”
Anakin ducked his head, his cheeks pink with
embarrassment, but also pleasure. “Yes, she says she is.”
“And what about your fat=
her?
Could he have not helped you?”
“I have no father.” Ben’s eyebrow
arched at the definitive edge in his voice and Anakin pressed on. “I =
know
you won’t believe me, but I didn’t have a father. Mother told me
one day she found herself pregnant with me, without having been with a man.=
She
never knew how it happened.”
Anakin fell silent, as he studied Ben’s pens=
ive
face. Maybe it had not been a good idea to tell him about his lack of fathe=
r.
He would think as the others that his mother had lied to him, that she had =
been
raped and tried to forgot the whole episode, that-
“Peace, Anakin, calm down. I believe you. I =
am
sure your mother told the truth,” Ben said quietly.
“How did you know what I was thinking?”
Anakin blurted.
“I am very sensitive to other people’s
moods, especially when they broadcast their feelings as strongly as you were
doing.”
Anakin nodded. He had heard of persons like that. =
In
fact he considered himself one of them. Was not he able to tell what his
clients wanted before they asked for it? Could not he sense when they wanted
him to be gentle and submissive or rough and domineering? Thinking about it,
Ben was probably the only man he was not able to read—perhaps because=
he
was so much like him?
Anakin decided then that it was about time he asked
some questions of his own, for he was getting more and more curious about t=
he
man sitting near him.
“Where do you come from, Ben?”
“I am from Coruscant.”
“Coruscant? Wow,
that’s pretty far from here!”
The older man nodded, “You can certainly say
so.”
“Was it not dangerous to cover such distance=
? I
heard the pirates and the smugglers are still raiding the Mid
and Outer Rim even now that the war has ended. And what are you doing on Tatooine? Are you here for business reasons?” <=
o:p>
Anakin clamped his mouth shut when he saw the grin
spreading on Ben’s face. A part of him was embarrassed by how he had
buried the man under his questions; the other instead was quite taken by his
companion’s face. He looked so handsome when he grinned like that!
Anakin was brought back to the present when Ben be=
gan
answering his questions.
“The journey here was safe. The Republic has
appointed several cruisers to patrol this area, and the number of pirate
attacks has decreased greatly. I am not here to work; quite the contrary, I=
am
on vacation.”
“On vacation?
Here?! Oh Ben, you’re indeed a strange man! Where are you staying? No=
, don’t
tell me, let me guess. You’re living in a Tusken=
Raiders’ camp!” Anakin exclaimed, his voice full of surprise and
irony.
“Quite close. I am living in a small, abando=
ned
hovel I found in the Jungland Wastes,” Ben
answered calmly, folding his arms over his chest.
Anakin’s mouth fell open in shock. “You
are joking, aren’t you?” Ben shook his head. “You’re
really living in the desert?” A nod. ̶=
0;Are
you aware of how dangerous it is?”
“Yes, my young friend, I am aware of it. But
it’s the perfect place for a man to be alone with his thoughts. And n=
ow,
Anakin, I think my hour is up. It’s time I go home; I prefer to travel
while there is still light.”
Anakin lowered his eyes to check his chrono. Ben was right, the time had expired. He felt =
the
desire to ask the older man to stay a little longer, but then he remembered=
all the road he had to cover to reach his place and the
imminent sunset. Thus he keep silent and stood u=
p as
Ben did the same.
“I wish you a good trip home,” Anakin
said, and this time he too bowed in salute.
“Thank you Anakin. I wish you a good
evening.”
Anakin watched as Ben walked toward the door, then suddenly called, “Ben!”
The older man stopped and faced him. “Yes, Anakin?”
“Please be careful.”
“I will, Anakin. I will,” then Ben tur=
ned
around and left the room.
In the precise moment his lithe, compact form
disappeared from his sight, Anakin experienced a sense of loss, as if a par=
t of
him had just left with that intriguing, kind, handsome stranger.
****=
*
Time elapsed, and Anakin’s life took a
distinctive pattern. He would arrive at Toradiur’=
;s
place two hours before the sunset, find that Ben had already arrived and was
waiting for him in his room, and spend the following hour talking with the =
older
man.
Ben did not talk about himself as Anakin had done,=
but
entertained the younger man with tales about the many words he had visited =
in
his life.
Anakin, who had never travelled further than Mos Esley, hung on every =
word as
Ben talked about the thick forests of Kashyyk, =
the
strange rocky mountains of Geonosis, the clear =
lakes
of Naboo and the spectacular skyscrapers of
Anakin had somehow guessed Ben was a sort of diplo=
mat,
sent here and there in the galaxy to settle disputes and local conflicts.
“You must have been very busy during the war=
!”
Anakin commented one evening, “And I bet all the diplomats still have
their hands full even now that peace has been restored.”
“That’s true, Anakin,” Ben answe=
red,
implicitly confirming the younger man’s guess about his profession.
“Have you ever met General Kenobi? The Jedi =
they
called “The Negotiator” during the war?”
Ben’s eyebrow arched, clearly surprised by t=
he
sudden question and he sat straighter on the armchair. “Why are you
interested in him?”
“Oh, it’s just I found admirable that
during a war, when everybody was using violence and intimidation, there was
someone willing to try resolving the matter without using the troops—=
and
to actually succeed. Mother was always happy when she heard about one of his
“victories”, she hates violence, you know. We have never seen h=
im
on the holonet, and we heard his voice only onc=
e, but
Mom imagines he is tall, and distinguished, with steel-grey short hair, he =
must
be in his sixty or so to have all that diplomatic experience…Hey, why=
are
you laughing?”
“Your mother has a great imagination, Anakin,
but she is off target here. General Kenobi is of average
height—you’re about ten centimetres taller than him. His hair is
reddish-blond and he is thirty-eight.”
“Thirty-eight?
Geez, he is only sixteen years my senior. Wizar=
d! Mom
will be surprised to know this!”
“Wizard?”=
span>
Ben commented tilting his head and Anakin blushed.
“Ahem…It’s an expression I used =
when
I was a child to describe something amazing.”
“I see. Then I suppose you used it many times
during your pod-racing days?” Ben replied, his eyes gleaming with hum=
our.
“You can bet on it, Ben. Have I ever told you
about my first victory in the Bonta’s Eve
Classic? No? Well, I was just nine and I barely managed to find a sponsor
willing to enter me and my pod in the race, and….”
Anakin talked during those evening encounters, tel=
ling
Ben big and small episodes of his life, happy to have found someone willing=
to
listen to him and able to see the real Anakin and not just stop at the
appearance as the others did.
Anakin talked, laughed and enjoyed himself, without
noticing how, little by little, he lost his heart to the older man, until t=
he
time something happened to make him realize how important Ben had become for
him.
****=
*
Anakin arrived at Toradiur=
217;s
place half a hour before his usual time and he w=
as
delighted to discover Ben was already there, eating dinner in the half-empty
hall.
The young man grinned and crossed quickly the dist=
ance
separating them to sit at the table with Ben.
“Good evening, Ben.”
“Good evening, Anakin. You arrived early tod=
ay.”
“I…well…I hoped you would be alr=
eady
here,” Anakin ducked his head and added, almost shyly. “I enjoy
your company very much.”
Ben smiled, then sobered as he said, “ItR=
17;s
the same for me. I came here on Tatooine to spe=
nd a
period in solitude and ponder several matters that have been troubling my m=
ind
and heart, but I have discovered our time together is helping me more than =
all
the time I spend alone.”
Anakin felt his heart constrict in his chest with =
an
emotion he did not want to label. “Thank you Ben, you’re very n=
ice
to say so.”
“I told only the truth.”
“I know.”
Ben’s long-fingered hand was resting flat ov=
er
the table and Anakin had the irresistible impulse to cover it with his own.=
Their skin touched and Anakin felt a bolt of energy
and contentment zip along his arm and spread in his body. It was like for t=
he
first time in his life he experienced a sense of belonging and understandin=
g he
had never felt, not even with his mother.
He raised his eyes, wondering if Ben had felt it t=
oo,
and his heart fell when he saw the stricken look on the bearded face in fro=
nt
of him.
“Ben?” Anakin asked softly, slowly
removing his hand. “What is it? Are you all right?”
The older man did not answer. He just retracted his
hand, folding his arms over his chest, as the stricken, almost horrified lo=
ok
remained.
“Ben?!”
Anakin repeated, now really worried. He half-rose from his chair to touch h=
is
companion’s shoulder but Ben moved away, avoiding his hand.
“I- I cannot stay this evening, Anakin. I mu=
st
leave. Now. Please forgive me.”
He was up and away with such speed that Anakin nee=
ded
some seconds to realize what had happened. When he did, he stood up too, wi=
th
the intention to follow Ben, ask what he had done and apologize if his
behaviour had caused distress.
However, just before he could cross the door, one =
of
his regular clients blocked him by the arm.
“Where are you going, beautiful?”
“I must talk with that man!” Anakin
exclaimed, his eyes scanning the streets as he tried to get loose.
“You can talk with him another time. I am he=
re
for only a few hours, and I want to feel that smooth skin of yours under my
hands, now,” the man breathed into his ear, before running his tongue
along the shell.
Anakin shuddered with revulsion and gritted his te=
eth
not to show it. That regular was a very wealthy trader—and a generous
one. He was rarely on Tatooine, but when he was=
, he
always visited Anakin and he always left him a lofty tip. Anakin knew he co=
uld
not afford to lose that tip or risk offending that costumer. He needed the
money too much.
So the young whore took a deep breath, forced hims=
elf
to forget Ben’s stricken face, and turned to face the man now holding=
him
by the waist.
“Tell me, handsome pirate, what would you li=
ke
tonight?”
****=
*
The next day Anakin was so nervous and anxious, lo=
oking
continuously at the chrono, willing time to pass
faster, that even his mother noticed it.
“What is it, Ani=
?”
She was the only one who called him so. “Are you worried about someth=
ing?
About the job?”
“No Mom, I am not worried about the job.R=
21;
“Then about what? I have not seen you like t=
his since
you stopped racing. Do you have some problem?” S=
hmi
Skywalker insisted, her kind brown eyes shining with concern.
Anakin, who had been pacing =
8216;til
that moment, dropped to sit on a chair by her bed.
“It’s just…” he ran a hand=
in
his thick blond hair and went on. “There is a man I have met at
Tora=
diur’s place. He =
has
been visiting me for the past two weeks. We have talked and I like
him…no, it’s much more than mere liking. I can’t stop
thinking about him.”
“Has this man been gentle with you? Or it=
217;s
the one that marked your neck yesterday?” Shmi=
span>
pointed to the bluish bruise Anakin sported near his collarbone. She despis=
ed
the men that thought that just because they were paying a fee they had the
right to abuse her son.
“No, Mom. It was not him. He has never touch=
ed
me. We have just been talking,” Anakin smiled as he added. “He =
has
spent a small fortune just to talk with me.”
“You eyes shine when you talk of him, my son.
It’s the first time I have seen it happen. I think you’re in lo=
ve, Ani.”
Anakin’s eyes widened in horror as he stood =
up
and started pacing again. “No, it’s impossible. It can’t =
be
love. I can’t allow myself to fall in love! I can’t afford it! I
can’t do my job if I am in love. It’s just… I like him. H=
e is
different: kind, gentle, educated…” And handsome, with a wonderful smile.<=
/i> How much would I give to touch and ca=
ress
his hair and skin- Anakin resolutely blocked that t=
hought.
“Anakin, my son, you can’t go on doing
this job for the rest of your life. No, don’t give me that look, I don’t intend to start another discussion=
about
this. It’s just you deserve better than this. You deserve to know lov=
e,
to find a man that will take care of you when I am gone.”
Shmi
swallowed hard and Anakin took advantage of it to press two of his fingers
against her lips.
“Shh, Mom, don=
8217;t
add anything else. You know I am going to stop doing this as soon as I am a=
ble
to pay for the ship Watto is reserving for me. =
Then I
will be able to work as a private courier here on Tato=
oine
or somewhere else. There is enough room for both of us on that ship, Mother=
. We
will travel together among the stars, you and I.=
”
Shmi
caressed her son’s cheek with her hand, her voice thick with emotion =
as she
said, “I know you will be able to do it, <=
span
class=3DSpellE>Ani. You will see the stars as you long to do, but you
should see them with a lover, a mate, not just with me.”
“I don’t like when you refer to yourse=
lf
like this, Mother.” Anakin replied sternly, waiting ‘til his mo=
ther
started to smile and added, “Now I am goin=
g to
prepare dinner. The sunset is almost beginning.” And I want to be at Toradiur’s pl=
ace as
soon as possible. I need to see=
Ben
and make it right whatever wrong I did yesterday.
It had no be.
As soon as Anakin stepped inside Toradiur’s
place, he knew Ben was not there. He knew it even before the brothel’s
owner looked at him shaking his head.
Anakin took a deep breath and lowered his head to
stare at the floor, as something in chest constricted in pain and acute sen=
se
of loss washed over him.
R=
20;Please
come back, Ben,” he thought as the brothel sta=
rted
to fill with costumers now more than ever he had no desire to service.
****=
*
“Well, Anakin?” T=
oradiur
asked, as he watched the pale young man sitting in front of him.
They were in the brothel owner’s private off=
ice,
away from prying eyes, and the older man’s
tone
was serious but not angry.
Anakin bit his lower lip. “I am unwell.̶=
1;
“It is the third time in as many days. That =
man
you refused to attend this evening is one of your regulars.”
“I am unwell,” Anakin stubbornly repea=
ted,
keeping his head turned to look outside the window.
Toradiur
gave up all pretension, “Look at me and tell me what is the problem.&=
#8221;
Anakin wrung his hands, trying to find a convincing
excuse, since it was clear Toradiur was not bel=
ieving
he was sick.
“There is no problem, T=
oradiur.
It’s just that I feel unwell. I am tired.”
Toradiur
looked at him sharply, “You aren’t unwell. You’re in
love!”
Every protest Anakin wanted to voice died on his l=
ips.
Toradiur was right. He was in love,
he could no longer deny it. He was in love with Ben and he could no longer =
bear
to let other men touch him. Worse, he was so worried about the fact Ben had=
not
showed up at the brothel since the evening he had rushed away, that he was =
not
able to sleep and eat. He was terrified Ben had left T=
atooine
and could not even contemplate the possibility he might never see him again=
.
Anakin stood silent and the brothel’s owner =
let
out a curse. “I should have known he would cause problems with his bl=
ue
eyes and his good manners. He is different, like you. I should have known y=
ou
would have been attracted by him. After all, you have never been so eager t=
o go
with a client as you did with him!”
“Tor, it’s=
not what
you think!” Protested Anakin, his mind racing
frantically as he tried to find the words to placate the other man. =
He
needed to go on working to buy his ship, but he found himself night after n=
ight
wishing that nobody asked for him.
“No? It isn’t what I am thinking?̶=
1; Toradiur arched an eyebrow.
“No-No-No!” insisted Anakin.
“It’s only-”
“It’s only that you can’t stop
thinking about that man!”
“No-”
Toradiur
raised his hand, interrupting whatever Anakin wanted to say, then
tiredly rubbed his eyes.
“Listen Anakin, t=
ake a
few days of vacation. Go to Watto’s shop,
tinker with some droid, dirt your hands with oil and grease. Take the speeder, go out for a trip with your mother. Relax, en=
joy
yourself and then return here when you feel better—and don’t wo=
rry
about the money. I made a lot of credits betting on you when you raced, thi=
s is
the time I repay you.”
“Tor, I have no =
words
to thank you…” Anakin murmured, moved by the kindness he had he=
ard
in the other man’s voice.
“Then don’t do it. Now go out of here,=
I
have work to do.”
Anakin smiled broadly, and stood up, quickly leavi=
ng
the room. He felt like a big weight had been taken off his shoulders. He was
free. If only a few days he was free from his work, from the brothel, from =
his
clients.
What would he do now?
The answer was simple.
He would go to find Ben.
****=
*
The next morning Anakin rose at dawn, something
uncommon for him, for it was about the time he usually returned home.
He went to the market, brought food, cooked it and
left it on the table, so that his mother could easily reach it from her
hover-chair. After that, he left a note to the still sleeping woman, alerti=
ng
her he would be gone for the whole day, and went to retrieve his old speeder
from the public hangar where it was parked.
Anakin did not know where Ben lived, but he could =
make
some guesses to restrict the area. Ben had once said he wanted to be home
before darkness fell, which meant his place had to be within a
hour or so from Mos Espa=
span>.
Anakin felt confident he would find the other man,
even in the extensive Jungland Wastes. His inst=
inct
told him so.
My
instinct or my heart? He wondered as he piloted the
speeder away from the settlement and toward the open desert.
Anakin had done many things in his life, but he had
never lied to himself. He felt he had fallen in love with Ben that first
evening— or maybe even the first time he had spotted him at the marke=
t. There
was something special in Ben, something that spoke, that appealed to a part=
of
him he had never known he had.
His gentility, his wit in the eye, his charm, the =
way
he treated Anakin as a person and not as a piece of meat as most did. The w=
ay
he listened to the story of his life, showing compassion but not pity and
never, ever giving the impression he was mocking or indulging him.
More than once had wanted to reveal to Ben the tru=
th
about his condition, for he had the gut feeling the older man had not the
slightest idea of why Anakin’s fee was so high. However, he had always
changed his mind, afraid Ben might be disgusted by what had been done to hi=
m.
Along the years Anakin had come to accept his
condition and had learned to live with it, with no regret. Moreover, after
having witnessed what men did when they let their libido rule their actions=
, he
had even come to think that maybe it had been for the best. His physical
development had not been hindered by the change in his physiology, but the
lesser quantity of hormones running into his blood had made him calmer and =
less
hot-headed than the other boys he had grown up with.
Now, instead, Anakin was again prey to doubts. How
would Ben react when he knew about his physiology? Would he be repulsed?
Intrigued? See him as a freak?
“As if this were my main problem,” he
muttered to himself as the speeder continued its run and the wind ruffled h=
is
blond hair. “I don’t even know if he considers me more than a
friend. Maybe he has not returned because of the way I looked at him that l=
ast
evening…” There was only one way to know, a=
sk
Ben—but first he had to find him.
Anakin slowed down the speeder and looked at his
surroundings. The flat desert had given place to rocky, barren formations t=
hat
created canyons and gorges. His right hand took hold of the blaster he had
taken with him as he piloted the speeder inside one of the larger canyons, =
his
eyes scanning the top of the walls in search of Sand People or other possib=
le
dangers.
Everything was silent around him, but for the slig=
ht
buzz of the engine and the whisper of the wind. It looked really peaceful a=
nd
relaxing, now that the suns had yet to start scorching the barren ground wi=
th
their heat. He could understand why Ben had chosen to retire here in search=
of
peace and solitude.
Suddenly Anakin heard another noise. He tensed his
ears to identify it and bit his lower lip when he realized it the sound of
blaster bolts.
Who was shooting? And at whom?=
Was Ben in danger?
Anakin stopped the speeder and jumped off. He took=
the
blaster from the holster and, moving as silently and quickly as he could, he
followed the direction the noise was coming from.
He had to squeeze his broad shoulders between two =
tall
walls of rock, but once he was out of that narrow passage, he found himself=
in
an almost circular clearing.
In the middle of it there was a man dressed with
tunic, pants and leather boots who was using a blue li=
ghtsabre
to deflect the blaster beams a small probe droid shot against him.
His movements were quick as light, powerful yet
graceful, and they filled Anakin with awe, for the man was wearing a helmet
that completely blocked his vision.
Anakin was so fascinated by the whirling blue blad=
e and
the dance of jumps and leaps he was witnessing to, it took him a few moment=
s to
realize the man was bearded.
When he finally did, his mouth opened in stunned
surprise. Ben with a lightsabre?
Ben, who had told him he was a diplomat.
Ben, who had said to him General Kenobi
was shorter than Anakin, in his late thirties and with reddish-blond hair. =
Ben, who was not afraid to live in the Jungland Wastes.
Ben, who seemed to always know what he felt and wh=
o,
Anakin was certain, already knew he was there.
Ben, who had practically admitted that
was not his real name…
Anakin swallowed hard as he watched as the older m=
an
powered off his lightsabre, removed the helmet =
and switched
off the small droid. Then he took some steps toward him and said, “You
are General Kenobi, aren’t you?”
As Anakin had fully predicted, Ben was not surpris=
ed
to hear his voice. He simply pushed his sweaty hair away from his brow and
bowed deeply in salute, “Yes, Anakin. My name is Obi-Wan Kenobi, Jedi
Master, Council Member and former General of the Republic.”
“Pleased to meet you, Master Kenobi,”
Anakin said solemnly, offering his hand, which Ben-Obi-Wan took and shook
firmly.
“Aren’t you angry that I didn’t =
the
truth, Anakin?”
“No, not really.<=
/span>
I know how things are out there. If the Hutts k=
new
you’re here, they would love to capture you for ransom. However, I li=
ke
to think that you would have told me the truth one day.”
Obi-Wan nodded, his blue-grey eyes locked with
Anakin’s blue one. “Yes, I would have, Anakin. I would have bec=
ause
I wanted to ask you—and your mother, of course – to come to
“What?” Anakin almost croaked, as his
heart started running. Obi-Wan had wanted to ask him to travel with him to =
Coruscant? Was it because he felt something for him? =
Because he did not want to leave him behind?”
The questions died on his lips as Obi-Wan spoke ag=
ain,
“A pilot with your skills is wasted here, while the Republic diplomat=
ic
corps or security forces need people like you. The Jedi Order needs pilots =
too.
The war caused many losses among our ranks.”
“And this is the only reason you want me to =
come
with you? You want to offer me a job?” Anakin could not help but ask.=
Obi-Wan looked at him for several seconds, his exp=
ression
serene and unreadable, then he murmured, “Let’s go to my hovel,=
it
will be soon too hot to stay outdoor. We will talk once we are there.”=
;
Anakin nodded, and followed as Obi-Wan showed him =
the
way.
Obi-Wan’s hovel, was small but comfortable. The Jedi Master pour=
ed
some jawa juice for both of them, then sat on a=
stool
in front of the one he had instructed Anakin to take.
“Anakin, you asked me a question back at the
clearing. A rightful question given my recent behaviour=
,
and you deserve an answer. But before I tell you my answer, I need to first
explain something to you. Is that all right?” Anakin nodded and Obi-W=
an
continued, “What do you know about the Jedi?”
“That they’re powerful warriors with s=
trange
powers. They’re the guardians of the Republic and they’re
invincible.” Anakin beamed, as his eyes drank in the sight of the man=
he
loved, who also happened to be one of the most famous Jedi alive.
“I wish the last bit was true, but it isn=
217;t
so,” Obi-Wan shook his head sadly. “Too many Jedi have perished=
in
the war and two of them were very dear to me. But this isn’t important
now. Tell me, have you ever heard or read about the Force?”
“The Force?
I heard someone mention it, but I don’t really know what it is.”=
;
“The Force is what gives a Jedi his power. I=
t's
an energy field created by all living things. It surrounds us and penetrates
us. It binds the galaxy together. People are born with the ability to sense=
the
Force. You, Anakin, are among them.”
“Really?”=
span>
“Yes. Your quick reflexes while piloting pod=
s,
your ability to see things before their happen, your skills in reading other
people’s feelings and moods. These are powers all the Jedi have, alth=
ough
we are trained to control them and to shield ourselves since infancy.”=
;
“That’s why I cannot sense what you=
217;re
feeling! You’re shielding!” Anakin exclaimed with a triumphant
smile.
“Yes, that’s true.” Obi-Wan paus=
ed
for a moment then continued, “What I am going to explain now might be
more complex, but it’s necessary you know =
it to
understand what brought me here…and to you.”
Anakin sobered and leant forward, “I am
listening.”
“There’re two sides in the Force, the
Light Side and the Dark Side. The Jedi draw their powers from the first one,
which embodies all the good a Knight should aspire to. The Dark Side, inste=
ad,
is what you can describe as the evil incarnate. The Jedi are taught to stay
away, for the Dark Side corrupts and consumes…but sometimes it happens
that one of us touches it. That’s what happened to me a few months ag=
o,
just before the end of the war.” Obi-Wan took a deep breath and then
asked, “Did you understand what I said?”
“Yes, I did.”
“Good. Now, what I am going to say must rema=
in a
secret—you cannot repeat it, not even to your mother.”
Anakin nodded, perplexed and yet proud Obi-Wan was
going to say something so clearly important.
“As you probably know, six months ago Darth
Maul, the leader of the Separatists was killed by the Jedi as he tried to
kidnap Chancellor Palpatine, who was also kille=
d in
that action. But what the press doesn’t know is that Palpatine,
alias Darth Sidious, was Darth Maul’s mas=
ter
and that the two of them had planned the war to take hold of the Republic a=
nd
destroy the Jedi Order. They were =
Sith,
or Dark Side users.” Obi-Wan paused and rubbed his beard, before
continuing, his voice now a bare whisper. “My former master Qui-Gon Jinn and I were among the Jedi who went to elimin=
ate Sidious and Maul. During the battle that followed, my=
master
was killed by Maul. Qui-Gon had been like a fat=
her to
me since I was a teenager, thus, when I saw him fall, I briefly let my anger
against the Sith fue=
l my
power and used it to defeat Maul. You might find it natural, but it’s=
not
so for a Jedi—and especially not for a master, who should always have=
a
perfect control. I nearly touched the Dark Side, and I didn’t react w=
ell
to that knowledge. I lost my peace of mind, and thus I took a period of lea=
ve
from the Jedi Council and retired here, to meditate and purge myself from t=
he
darkness I sensed inside me. I had been here for two months, and I was slow=
ly
recovering, when I saw you at the market.”
“Me?” Anakin exclaimed,
alarmed by the way Obi-Wan had spoken. “Did I something wrong?”=
“What? No! Oh, sorry, Anakin, I expressed my=
self
badly. I meant what my recovery was slow before I met you…after I met=
you
it became very fast.”
“Oh.”
“The Light Side is extremely powerful in you,
Anakin. You…you shone like a small star in the Force, and your aura
called me like a beacon. The light in you has dispelled the darkness inside=
me.
That’s why I liked to spend time near you, meditating or talking.R=
21;
Anakin nodded, then fro=
wned
when his mind registered what he just heard. “You said liked. Past te=
nse.
Why did you use it? Because you’re now healed? Or
because…because you no longer like me? Is that why you have
stopped coming to visit me?”
Obi-Wan closed his eyes and his voice was filled w=
ith
a pain Anakin had ever heard when he murmured, “I like to stay near y=
ou,
Anakin. But I like it too much. I have started developing… feelings f=
or
you-”
“Feelings?”=
Anakin exclaimed, as he slid down the stool to kneel in front of Obi-Wan,
taking hold of both his hands. “I too have feelings for you, Obi-Wan.=
Very strong feelings. In fact I believe I love you. No=
, that’s
not true. I know I love you and=
-”
“Let go of my hands, Anakin,” Obi-Wan =
said
softly but firmly.
The younger man obeyed and the Jedi master brought=
his
hands up to surround Anakin’s face.
“Anakin, I am honoured by your feelings, but
this can never be. I am Jedi and, as such, I am not allowed to love. Jedi a=
re
forbidden to form attachments, for attachment leads to possession, possessi=
on
leads to jealousy, to fear, to hate. To the Dark Side-- as it was with my
master and the other person I loved in my life, a fellow knight called Siri. I needed all of my restraint not to behead the =
bounty
hunter that had killed her, and I told you what happened with Darth Maul,=
8221;
Obi-Wan lowered his head as his voice died.
Anakin sat back on his heels, fighting with his
disappointment. It was devastating to see his hopes crushed after having se=
en
them soar so high.
But =
maybe
there is still hope, he thought. Obi-Wan is still recovering from his ord=
eal.
Maybe once his master’s death is more in the past and his brush with =
the
Dark Side forgotten, then, maybe…
“Can we still remain friends? I like to talk
with you,” he murmured looking up at the older man with hopeful, shin=
ing
eyes.
Obi-Wan smiled weakly. “Yes, of course we
can.”
“Are you still willing to bring me and my mo=
ther
with you to Coruscant when you leave?”
“Of course!
I could never leave my friend behind. You’re a wonderful young man,
Anakin, and if you allow me, there is nothing more I would like than make y=
our
life better. We really need pilots in the
“Two weeks? Wonderful! I will give Toradiur the two weeks notice as soon as I am back in=
town,”
Anakin beamed, his mind already filled with possibilities. Coruscant. A new job. Obi-Wan…
Obi-Wan cleared his throat to draw his attention a=
nd
said, “Listen Anakin, with your permission, of course, I would like to
reserve all your time at the brothel until the day we leave.”
“You want to stay up all night, every night =
talking?”
Anakin asked, not understanding, but not displeased at all by the idea.
“No, not really.<=
/span>
I just want to help you. I have sensed how hard has become for you to do yo=
ur
job. I thought that if I pay for all your time from now to the day we leave,
you won’t have to… work again.”
“You truly would do this for me? Have you id=
ea
of how much it would cost?” Anakin’s eyes filled with tears as =
his
heart swelled with love for the beautiful, kind man sitting in front of him=
.
“Of course, I will do it. As for the money, =
Jedi
are not allowed many possessions, but I was permitted to keep the inheritan=
ce I
received from my family. It’s quite a lot and I will be very happy to=
use
part of it to help you. I will do you it with pleasure.”
“I-I have no words to thank you, Obi-Wan. Th=
is
means so much for me,” Anakin murmured, his throat constricted by a l=
ump.
Obi-Wan smiled, “It means very much to me
too.”
Anakin felt the desire to stood up and embrace the
older man, but something in the way he looked at him told him it was not the
right thing to do. It was too soon.
You =
must
be patient, Skywalker, he thought, you must be patient.
****=
*
The next morning Anakin and Obi-Wan went to visit =
Toradiur.
First Anakin announced he would leave his job in t=
wo
weeks, then the Jedi master made his offer to the
brothel’s owner, an offer that could not be refused.
Credit chips changed hands, a contract was drawn a=
nd
signed, then Obi-Wan left the room, so that Anak=
in and
Toradiur could talk in private, as the older ma=
n had
expressed the wish to do.
“Are going to live with him?” Toradiur asked as soon they were alone.
“Not really. Or better, not yet. He has offe=
red
me a job as pilot on Coruscant, but I hope with=
time
he will become more than just my employer,” Anakin answered with
sincerity.
“I hope it will be so, kid. I would hate to =
know
you ended up selling yourself on Coruscant.R=
21;
“I won’t! He will never let me
down!” Anakin exclaimed, wishing he could tell the other man why he
completely trusted Obi-Wan.
“You love him, Anakin. That’s all too
clear. But does him love you back? I confess I find him very cold. Maybe he=
is
just taking advantage of your feelings.”
“He is just very reserved, Tor,
but I know he cares for me deeply.” Anakin took a deep breath and
continued, “ As for taking advantage of me=
, we
never had sex, Tor. He never used me.”
“What?!”
“You heard me. We have never been together. =
In
fact we have never even kissed.”
Toradiur
was stunned. “Then tell me, what did you do all those evenings?”=
;
“We talked,” Anakin smiled. “We
talked and came to know each other.”
“Oh…well. Then maybe this is really love.” Toradiur smil=
ed and
patted Anakin’s shoulder. “I wish you luck, Anakin. I wish you
happiness, for you deserve it, kid.”
They shook hands, then =
Anakin
left the office. A few minutes later, the young man and Obi-Wan walked away
from the brothel for the last time, determinate to never again put a foot
inside one.
****=
*
The days before the departure were full of activity
for Anakin. He had to pack the stuff they wanted to bring with them, buy
travelling bags and clothes for himself and his mother, check
that he had all the drugs Shmi might need for t=
he
trip and so on.
Anakin’s mother had been delighted to know t=
hat
her son had quit his job and that they would soon move off of the planet to
work as pilot.
“Oh Ani,” = she had exclaimed upon hearing the news. “I am so happy for you! Because = your talent as a pilot as been recognized and because you have finally found somebody to love. When you will bring Ben here? I wish to know him.”<= o:p>
“I will ask him to come here for lunch one of
these days. But first there is something you must know: Ben’s real na=
me
is Obi-Wan. Obi-Wan Kenobi.”
“Like the famous Jedi Master?”
“He is the
Jedi Master we heard so much about.”
Shmi
used her hands to sit straighter on the bed. “You mean you are going =
to
work for the Jedi Order?”
“Yes, Mon.”
“But this is wonderful! Every one knows the =
Jedi
are honourable and honest. He will never let you down!” Shmi was ecstatic.
“That’s true, Mom, but there is also a
downside. Jedi are not allowed to love.”
The woman’s eyes widened in shock, “You
mean he doesn’t love you? That he is just helping you out of friendsh=
ip
or compassion?”
Anakin shook his head. “No, Mom. I sense he
loves me too. It’s just he cannot bring himself to admit it. He is ve=
ry
confused now, and also reserved. So, when I invite him here for lunch, plea=
se
don’t touch the subject of love, all right? Thank him for helping us =
and
for being my friend, but nothing more.”
Shmi
nodded, “As you wish, Ani.”
Anakin embraced his mother then returned to his
packing, his mind lost in thoughts of Obi-Wan.
He had managed to sound very calm and composed with
his mother, but in truth he was everything but that. He was desperately in =
love
with the Jedi and longed for his kisses and caresses and for hearing his low
voice murmur “I love you” in his ear.
Anakin had never been in love in his whole life, n=
or had
he ever felt sexual desire. Yes, he had experienced pleasure with those cli=
ents
that had bothered to take the time to make him come, but never before he had
burned with the need to feel a man’s hand caress him nor had he felt the desire to rip someone’s clothes =
away
as he did with Obi-Wan.
Anakin had often heard people speak of “maki=
ng
love”, and now he wanted to know for himself how lovemaking was diffe=
rent
from having sex.
“You must be patient,” he said to hims=
elf
for the umpteenth time. “You cannot jump on Obi-Wan like this. You wo=
uld
just scare him away, for no man would like to be eaten alive as you’re
planning to do. Give him time.”
Anakin sighed. He knew he was doing the right thin=
g,
but he did not know for how longer he would be able to restrain himself.
Two days later Obi-Wan accepted an invitation to l=
unch
at the Skywalkers’ place.
Anakin had made sure the little hovel was in perfe=
ct
order and had asked his mother to help with the cooking, for he wanted to
prepare something different from the simple dishes he usually made.
His mother had teased him gently as she had given =
him
instructions, but it was clear she was very happy to see her son behave lik=
e a
man in love, to see him smile so often and leave behind the brooding expres=
sion
he had sported for so long.
When Obi-Wan finally arrived, Shmi
understood immediately why her son had fallen for him.
The Jedi master was indeed an attractive man, but =
what
caught her attention more was his calm, his control and the kindness
transpiring from each of his gestures and words.
Anakin had always had the tendency to be impulsive=
but
he had become calmer, more relaxed and less ready to burst since the older =
man
had appeared in his life. Shmi thought they
complemented each other perfectly and knew, in her heart of mother, that
Obi-Wan would soon admit aloud he loved Anakin, for it was evident in the w=
ay
he looked at her son.
A couple of hours before the sunset, when Obi-Wan =
was
about to leave, the sky clouded and a strong wind started to blow.
“A storm is approaching,” Anakin annou=
nced,
peering from the window before blocking the shutters. “You cannot tra=
vel
with the this weather. You must stay here for the
night.”
“I can find a room in town,” Obi-Wan
commented.
“Nonsense.=
I will sleep with my mother and leave you my bedroom,” Anakin answere=
d,
even if his heart screamed to ask Obi-Wan to share the bed with him.
“If you are sure I will not cause
troubles…”
“I am quite sure. And now that is settled,
let’s return to our sabacc game, I want t=
o beat
you at least once.”
Obi-Wan smiled, “It is not easy to beat me,
young one.”
Anakin grinned, upon hearing the endearment Obi-Wan
had started to use more frequently. “Because you =
are a
Jedi?”
“No…because you have the habit to let =
your
tongue peak out your lips when you are planning something,” Obi-Wan
answered all serious, but with his eyes full of mirth.
“I don’t do that!” Anakin exclai=
med,
outraged.
“Are you so sure you don’t?”
“Well, maybe once or twice…”
“Six or seven would be more a
accurate account.”
Anakin laughed, basking in warmth of Obi-Wan’s companionship as they both sat back at the
table, ready for another round of sabacc.
Later that night, as Anakin prepared to go to bed,=
he
realized he had forgotten his sleep clothes in his bedroom when he had made=
a
fresh bed for his guest. So he went to his chamber to retrieve them, withou=
t bothering
to knock on the door for he thought Obi-Wan was still in the ‘fresher=
.
He was not.
Anakin froze when his gaze posed on the almost nak=
ed
form of his beloved. His hungry eyes drank in the sight in front of him, tr=
ying
to fix every detail in his memory.
Obi-Wan was slender, bu=
t clearly
strong. His well-formed chest was covered by hair, hair that his fingers lo=
nged
to touch. His skin was fair, but not too pale and Anakin found enchanting t=
he
way it turned pink under his burning glance.
“Do- do you need anything, Anakin?”
Obi-Wan asked, as his right hand checked he had tucked well the towel wrapp=
ed around
his hips.
“Yes,” answered the young man, with a
voice he barely recognized as his own. “I need you.”
Before Obi-Wan could reply or protest, Anakin cove=
red
the distance between them, and embraced the smaller man, pressing their bare
chests together, and lowering his head to put his lips over the other’=
;s.
Obi-Wan’s lips w=
ere
everything he had imagined them to be, soft and hard at the same time, surr=
ounded
by whiskers that caressed his skin in a most pleasing way.
Anakin moaned in delight when the Jedi opened his
mouth and allowed his tongue inside and, taking it as a capitulation, he le=
t go
of Obi-Wan’s back. He used his hands to
unfasten and push down his trousers and underwear, pressing his soft member=
against
the hard one he could feel beneath the towel.
The feel of Obi-Wan’s=
span>
desire, made Anakin growl in triumph, but the feeling was short lived, beca=
use
the older man pushed at his shoulders hard, obliging him to back away sever=
al
steps to keep his balance.
They stood one in front of the other, both panting=
and
flushed. Anakin watched as Obi-Wan’s eyes=
swept
over his body, taking in the details of his broad, smooth chest, of his fla=
t,
hairless belly, of his strong thighs and the limp sex between them.
Anakin watched as the Jedi narrowed his eyes, then blinked as he observed his groin, seemingly not
believing what his brain was telling him.
When finally their eyes met again, Anakin saw the
unspoken question in Obi-Wan’s.
“I am a gelding,” Anakin murmured, then
continued before Obi-Wan could say anything, “Ta=
tooine’s
local breed of human males have a special physio=
logy
that makes them highly prized as pleasure workers... If-if they are castrat=
ed when
still boys, their body changes to compensate the mutilation. Our...prostate
develops differently, making it possible for us to achieve a greater sexual=
satisfaction
than a normal man, but only if we are ... penetrated.
I was seven years old when Ga=
rdulla
the Hutt, my owner until she lost me and my mot=
her in
a bet with Watto, had me operated. She owns sev=
eral
brothels here in Mos Espa<=
/span>
and Mos Esley and p=
lanned
to send me to work there as soon as I was old enough. We geldings are becom=
ing
very rare, for a certain degree of humanity and respect toward the slaves h=
as
arrived here too, thus I suppose Gardulla plann=
ed to
make a lot of money with me. As far as I know, I am the last one ever submi=
tted
to this operation. That’s why I am…I was so expensive. My phero=
mones
make me attractive to straight and gay men alike…thus I was very
popular.”
Anakin fell silent after this stream of words, and
waited for Obi-Wan to digest what he had heard. His heart constricted when =
he
noticed that the older man’s erection no longer pressed against the
fabric of his towel.
“Are…are you repulsed by me?” He
whispered, his eyes filled with pain.
“What?” Obi-Wan blinked, as if he had =
been
lost in thought, then shook his head. “No, of course not. You are a wonderful young ma=
n,
with a great and generous heart. You have managed to stay pure and full of
light even despite everything happened to you. How could I ever be repulsed=
by
you?”
“Then why do you no longer want me?” A=
nakin’s
voice almost broke as he pointed at Obi-Wan’s
groin.
“It’s not that. I want you
Anakin—but I can’t act on my desire. I can’t give you the
commitment you deserve. Should I take you now, I wouldn’t feel any
different from those men in the brothel. I would use you and give nothing
back.” There was quite finality in his words, and Anakin knew he would
not change his mind.
The young man growled as he pulled up his trousers.
“I can’t understand how a man as intelligent as you could ever =
say
something so stupid! Use me! How is it possible you don’t see the dif=
ference?
I love you! I want you! You are the only one I have ever wanted and you wou=
ld
honour me by sharing your body with me! I don’t expect you to marry <=
span
class=3DGramE>me, I just want to feel your love!”
Anakin burst out the room before Obi-Wan could see=
the
tears threatening to escape him. He grabbed a shirt and a cloak and left the
house, desperately needing to be away from the source of his greatest delig=
ht
and frustration.
It was already dark outdoors, but the storm had ca=
lmed
down, leaving behind dunes of sand in the streets.
The air was cool, fresh and Anakin breathed it dee=
ply
as he walked, head lowered, hands in his pockets, trying to sort out his
feelings.
Perhaps he had been wrong to make his move over
Obi-Wan so soon or so aggressively, but boy, how could he resist the sight =
of
that naked chest and trusting face?
He should have sensed Obi-Wan=
’s
discomfort at his actions. Was not that what he was famous for? But, at lea=
st,
the evening had not been a complete disaster.
First of all, Obi-Wan had not been repulsed by his
condition, something that was very important.
Second, how could he really be upset when the man =
he
loved had refused to take him out of love and respect? He could not. In fac=
t,
now that he thought more about it, he felt quite touched and moved by it.
Sure, he knew Obi-Wan’s=
stubbornness would be difficult to win, but at least he had admitted aloud =
he
loved Anakin, and it was a step forward.
The young man raised his head and smiled. It was t=
ime
to return home. Maybe Obi-Wan would be still awake and he would be able to
apologize-
“Well, well, well, look who we have here.=
221;
The voice coming from somewher=
e near
him made Anakin freeze.
He knew it.
Darnell.
Anakin looked around for a way out as the miner st=
epped
out of the darkness and the young man felt a shiver run along his spine as =
he
noticed he was not alone.
Six other men flanked him, looking at Anakin in a =
way
that made his skin crawl.
“Good evening, Darnell. =
A nice
time for a walk, huh?” Anakin said, forcing himself to stay ca=
lm.
“I was just going home…”
“Oh no, whore, you aren’t. At least not yet. I have heard you left Toradiur’s
place for you found a rich lover boy ready to maintain you. Good for
him—but I hope he likes to share, for this evening I will finally have
that nice piece of ass of yours.”
The miner gestured with his hand and the six thugs
surrounded Anakin…
The young man turned on his heels and tried to run
away, but one of his assailants threw himself at his legs, grabbing one of =
his
ankles and knocking him down.
Anakin landed on his face, his lower lip breaking =
in
the impact with the ground. He quickly turned on his back, kicking and stri=
king
out with his fists to keep the six thugs away.
“Don’t damage him too much,” Dar=
nell
sneered, towering above him, as Anakin cried when a blow made his nose blee=
d.
“I want him responsive when I take him.”
Anakin doubled his efforts to get free, but he was=
no
match for those six miners, and even if he was able to inflict a lot of dam=
age
to them, in the end they managed to pin his legs and arms to the ground.
Darnell laughed maliciously, “Now we will see
how good you are, whore…” He was about to
unbuckle his belt when suddenly he was slammed against the nearest wall by =
an
unknown force, as another figure appeared in the street.
“Let him go,” Obi-Wan commanded, his t=
one
low but full of dangerous promise.
“I don’t think so, lover boy,”
Darnell snarled, massaging his jaw. “I will have =
him,
and maybe you too.”
“That’s highly unlikely,” Obi-Wan
said calmly, igniting his lightsabre. The bluis=
h glow
lightened his resolute features, as Anakin felt his assailants utter a murm=
ur
of surprise-- and worry.
The only one who seemed not to be concerned was
Darnell. “Are you a Jedi?”
“Yes, I am.”
“Good. I have always wanted to fuck a Jedi.&=
#8221;
The miner turned to face his accomplices, “Stun him!” He ordere=
d.
Four of the six thugs let go of Anakin to raise and
use their blasters against Obi-Wan, who deflected the bolts with his lightsabre.
In the chaos that followed, Anakin managed to kick=
the
two men still holding him down in their balls, making them double over in p=
ain
as he scrambled to his feet. For a moment he stood there he
was, wanting to help Obi-Wan but not knowing how, until the Jedi mas=
ter
shouted, “Run Anakin, run! Go home! I will be fine. Go!”
Anakin hesitated a moment more, then turned around=
and
ran away.
As soon as he was safely home, Anakin leant his ba=
ck
against the wall by the door, and closed his eyes, trying to calm his hurri=
ed
breathing and running heart.
That had been a close call! What had possessed him=
to
leave the house during a night like this one, when the sand storm had advis=
ed
most of the cantinas’ owners to keep their places closed and everybody
stayed home? He had been an idiot and he had almost paid a very high price =
for
his stupidity. If Obi-Wan had not arrived…
Anakin refuse to continue the thought, as his mind filled with gratitude for
the Jedi master. Gratitude and worry. What would
happen if Obi-Wan was hit by a stunning beam?
Anakin was about to run in his room to fetch his
blaster and go outside again when the door opened to admit Obi-Wan. He look=
ed
well, his breath slight hurried and his air ruffled.
“Are you all right?” He asked the youn=
ger
man.
Anakin opened him mouth to answer but before he co=
uld
do it, Obi-Wan crossed the room grabbed him by the shoulders and pressed him
against his chest.
“Obi-Wan!”<=
/span>
Anakin said, his voice muffled by the fabric of =
the
Jedi’s tunic, as frantic hands tasted and prodded his body in search =
of
injuries. “Obi-Wan! What are you doing? I =
am
fine!”
Anakin managed to raise his arms and to push again=
st
Obi-Wan’s chest with just the right amoun=
t of
strength necessary to make the Jedi loosen his embrace.
Their gazes met and Anakin noticed there were tear=
s in
Obi-Wan’s eyes, as he looked at the dried=
blood
splattered over the younger man’s chin and shirt.
“You’re hurt. I wasn’t fast enou=
gh. It
was all my fault if you left the house so
late…” Obi-Wan murmured, turning his head away.
“What? Oh no, I won’t let you take the
blame for something I did. I was an idiot to leave with the dark. I should =
have
known better than to do it. As for not being fast enough, man, you saved me
from a certain rape! This is just a broken lip and a sore nose. It will pas=
s in
no time. Or maybe, you can kiss it better…” Anakin added in an
afterthought, fully expecting a blush, a frown and nothing more.
So he was stunned when Obi-Wan tilted his head and=
did
exactly that. He kissed first the tip of his nose, then his swollen lips, h=
is
touch soft and gentle. Then he pulled back and asked, “Is that
better?”
“Much better,” Anakin croaked out.
They looked at each other for a long while, then
Anakin lowered his head and kissed Obi-Wan.
The lips beneath his own were moist, willing and
opened quickly to admit his tongue, before shyly reciprocating his moves.
Anakin moaned and his arms rose to embrace the sma=
ller
man, as his lips left Obi-Wan’s mouth to =
cover
his face and neck with kisses and little nips.
Anakin was so lost in his passion and relishing in=
the
taste of the man he had wanted for so long, that it took him a while to rea=
lize
that Obi-Wan was not responding to his advances, and was actually trembling.
Swallowing hard, Anakin loosened his embrace and stepped back, head lowered=
.
“I am sorry, Obi-Wan,” he murmured, not
looking at the older man. “I keep on pressing my needs over you. I wi=
ll
stop now and-”
He was silenced by two calloused fingers pressed
against his lips. “Shh, young
one. Everything is all right and I don’t want you to stop.R=
21;
Anakin’s head whipped up. “You
don’t?”
“No,” Obi-Wan smiled briefly before
sobering again. “I love you Anakin. This evening, after you left, I
meditated and asked the Force for guidance. It came to my help and made me
realize that I am already attached to you as much as possible, and that mak=
ing
love will be the manifestation of the already existing, soul-deep, life-long
commitment I have made to you in my heart. It made me realize that my past
mistakes made me a better Jedi, and that I can continue to do my duty to th=
e Order
and the Force while loving you, for I will never let my feeling interfere i=
n my
job. It made me realize what happened when my master died wasn’t as b=
ad
as I thought—and that I have been too hard with myself, something oth=
er
Jedi had already said me, but I had refused to listen. So no, Anakin, my yo=
ung
one, I don’t want you to stop. Instead I want you to teach me how to =
make
love to you,” Obi-Wan finished, a smile tugging at his lips.
“You mean you have never been with a man
before?”
“Not exactly…” Obi-Wan blushed a=
nd
understanding dawned in the younger man.
“You…you have never been with
anyone,” Anakin murmured, dazzled by the discovery and by Obi-Wan’s declaration of undying devotion.
“Yes, that’s it,” Obi-Wan confir=
med,
his blush deepening.
“Oh, but this is wonderful,” Anakin
murmured, as he raised his hand to cup one of his companion’s bearded
cheeks. His stupor was already disappearing, replaced by a warm feeling of
tenderness. “I-I am honoured to be your first, Obi-Wan.”
“First and only, I dare to say,” Obi-W=
an
smiled, and this time it reached his eyes, making him look younger.
Anakin lowered his hand and intertwined his fingers
with Obi-Wan’s. “I will always trea=
sure
the gift you are giving me. I am only sorry I cannot do the same for you. Y=
ou cannot
be my first as I am yours-- even if this is going to be a first time of sort
for me too, for I have never made love before. Never.=
8221;
Anakin looked deeply at Obi-Wan, telling with his eyes everything he could =
not
put in words. And Obi-Wan understood.
“I think it is time we both discover what it
means to make love,” the older man murmured, tugging at Anakin’s
hand and leading him toward the bedroom.
Once the door slid closed behind their backs, Obi-=
Wan
let go of Anakin’s hand and looked at the younger man, as if he waited
for instructions.
Anakin felt his heart fill with tenderness as he
understood the depth of the gift he was being given. It was not just the fa=
ct
Obi-Wan was breaking the Jedi Code for him, that was nothing compared to the
vulnerability he was showing. An adult man, almost fort=
y, who
knew nothing of sex. Anakin could have shattered his ego and his
confidence with just a wrong word.
The young man smiled gently and reached out with h=
is
hand, taking Obi-Wan’s and leading him to=
the bed.
“Sit down,” he murmured and was obeyed=
at
once. He smiled at the anxious eyes watching his every move and knelt on the
floor to remove the Jedi’s leather boots and socks. Then he scooted
closer to Obi-Wan and made him bend his head, so that they could kiss, slow=
ly
but deeply.
They kissed for some time, for Anakin wanted to bu=
ild
Obi-Wan’s confidence little by little, an=
d was
gratified when, after a while the older man grabbed him by the head to deep=
en
their kisses, pushing his tongue in his mouth.
Anakin moaned and decided it was time to move on. =
He
first shed his shirt, then unfastened Obi-Wan’s<=
/span>
tunic, sliding his hands beneath the beige fabric to touch the soft skin and
hair there.
Anakin had done this hundred of times but this was=
the
first time he took pleasure in exploring another man’s flesh. He part=
ed
the tunic and pushed it down Obi-Wan’s
shoulders, baring his torso completely.
He fingered a nipple and smiled when Obi-Wan gasped
and arched his back.
“Anakin…” the older man murmured
throatily.
“Yes?”
“My trousers…they are getting
uncomfortable…”
Anakin laughed softly at that admission and quickly
moved to unfasten the beige leggings. “Raise your hips, so I can pull
them down.”
Obi-Wan did as asked and soon Anakin found himself
staring at his hard member.
“I was right that first night, you’re
really a big boy,” he said
cheekily as Obi-Wan’s face took the same =
purple
colour of his manhood.
“I…”
“Shh,” Ana=
kin
said quickly, realizing the other was going to apologize. “It’s=
a
good thing. I will feel you more.”
“Oh. If you say so,” Obi-Wan commented,
his voice under control as his blush toned down.
Anakin shook his head with fondness, then returned to stare at the turgid member in front o=
f his
eyes. He wanted to touch and taste it, but a look at Obi-Wan’s
eyes and the precome already oozing from the ti=
p,
made him realize it was not the time. He would have to wait until Obi-Wan
learned to have more control. So he just pressed against the base of the
erection, stalling off the imminent release, and then stood, quickly kicking
away his shoes and pants.
He climbed on the bed on his hands and knees and
wriggled his bottom at Obi-Wan. He briefly thought of making a joke about t=
he
Jedi’s l=
ightsabre,
but he discarded the idea. So he simply said, “Make love to me, Obi-W=
an.
I need you.”
Obi-Wan swallowed hard and scooted behind him on h=
is
knees, his calloused hands caressing his buttocks gently, but with a hint of
possessiveness that made Anakin’s head reel.
“Come on, love,” he murmured, looking =
at Obi-Wan
from above his shoulder, “I am ready for you.” And he was, his body relaxed and naturally loose.
Obi-Wan nodded, breathed deeply, and taking hold of
himself slowly pushed inside Anakin.
Anakin’s eyes rolled back at the slow insert=
ion,
so different from the brisk, careless way he had always been taken. He could
feel every inch of the hard length filling him and it made him moan.
Obi-Wan stilled, as his hands ran up and down his
sides. “Are you all right?” he whispered. “Am I hurting
you?”
“No…it is just so good…so very
good…”
“Oh…” Obi-Wan murmured and pushe=
d in
until he was completely inside. Anakin felt him rest heavily on his back, as
the older man’s hurried breath fanned the hair on his nape.
Anakin turned his head to look at his lover. Obi-<=
span
class=3DSpellE>Wan’s face was flushed and sweaty, his hair in
disarray, and his pupils were so wide his eyes looked almost black.
“How do you feel?” he whispered.
“I- I never thought it would feel like
this…So tight…so hot…” was the breathy answer.
“It will become even better when you start
moving.”
“Moving?”
“Yes. Pull back almost all the way and then =
push
in again…let your instinct guide you…” Anakin contracted =
his
inner muscles to stimulate and spur his lover.
Obi-Wan moaned and his hands clutched at his hips =
almost
painfully. “Anakin…” He retreated a little then pushed
forward again, experimenting, and Anakin watched in delight as his mouth we=
nt
slack with pleasure. Then Anakin lowered his head and braced with his arms,
starting to rock back and forth in counterpoint to Obi-Wan’s
thrusts.
An unknown pleasure invaded Anakin. It did not just
come by the steady friction of the turgid member stroking deeply inside him=
, it
also came from the fact that this was Obi-Wan loving him, using his body to
show him the depth of his feelings.
Anakin could feel that love…and a bright,
soothing presence caressing his mind and pervading him with warmth.
Obi-Wan.
“Oh…oh…Obi-Wan…I can feel
you…” he moaned.
“Here?” Obi-Wan panted, one of his han=
ds
leaving Anakin’s hips to press flat against his heaving belly.
“No…” Anakin took the hand in his
own and moved it higher, posing it over his ster=
num,
near his hammering heart, “Here…and here…” he moved=
the
hand to his temple.
“I…have…lowered my shields,
Anakin…I can feel you too…do you like it?”
“Yes…yes…” Anakin panted, =
his
eyes closed, “…such love…such closeness…I
…” his last words were lost in a high scream as release hit him=
all
at once, making him contract around Obi-Wan in a way what was pleasurable a=
nd
painful at the same time.
Obi-Wan cried out as he thrust one last time and t=
hen
tensed, filling Anakin’s body and mind with his love.
Anakin’s arms gave out, and the two lovers
collapsed on the bed. Obi-Wan rolled on his side, and pulled the younger man
closer, spooning behind him, chest to back, their legs
intertwined.
Anakin took one of Obi-Wan=
217;s
hands and brought it to his lips. “How do you feel?”
“I feel well…” came
the breathy answer, very close to his ear. “Pleasantly tired…ve=
ry
happy…very loved. And you?” Obi-Wan squeezed Anakin’s wai=
st
with his other arm.
“I feel exactly like you. I have never imagi=
ned
what I found so sordid could turn to be like this. The feel of your mind in
mine was-”
“Wizard?”=
span>
Obi-Wan completed for him, kissing his nape.
“Awesome,” Anakin laughed softly.
“Will be always like this?”
“Well, I remember I once read it will get be=
tter
with practice…” Obi-Wan joked.
Anakin swatted his arm. “That is not what I
mean.”
“I know.” Obi-Wan sobered, “Yes,
Anakin, it will be always like this. I will always share my mind with you. =
You
are my beloved, and I wish to give you everything I am.”
Anakin closed his eyes,
basking in the warmth those words had stirred in him. “Will we be abl=
e to
see each other often once we are on Coruscant?&=
#8221;
“I don’t know yet Anakin, but I promis=
e I
will try to be with you as much as possible, even if we will have to keep o=
ur
relationship secret—at least for the moment.”
“For the moment?”<=
/span>
Anakin’s eyes opened and he turned around to face Obi-Wan.
“Since the war ended, there had been talks a=
bout
changing certain rules of the Code, included the one about attachments, to
encourage people to hand their children to the
“Why did you not tell me before?”
“Because,” Obi-Wan kissed Anakin now
swollen nose, “nothing has been decided yet. It could happen tomorrow=
or
the next year or never. I didn’t want to raise false hopes.”
“Oh well, as long as you love me, I can adap=
t to
anything.”
“I love you Anakin, and always will,”
Obi-Wan said fiercely, with his voice and then with his mind, and Anakin cl=
osed
his eyes relishing in the mental caress he already loved so much.
“As I love you,” he murmured, leaning
forward to kiss Obi-Wan.
The two men shared a long, deep kiss, as if they w=
ere
sealing their vows to each other, then they settled down to sleep.
Dawn would arrive soon and with it the beginning of
the first day of Anakin and Obi-Wan’s new=
life.
THE END